The Worst Mistake of a Human Being

Por Macario Morales

Living an ungovernable, unbearable life is the worst mistake of a human being. By not knowing how to live in this life, it is pure failure. There are unadventurous beings who love everything negative; it's the only thing they know how to do. It is all that flows from their lips, making others feel bad, and there is no other way but to defeat it.They don't know how to behave.Be a good husband.Be a good Christian.Be a good father.They don't know why they brought kids in this world because they do not lead them to God. They lead them toward the devil with their actions. And that's the reason why they feel the enemies of God. Because there is no peace, there is no blessing from God in the home. And they are not friends of a supreme being.

• Idioma: Español
• Editorial: Page Publishing, Inc.
• Fecha de lanzamiento: 10 ene 2023
• ISBN: 9781662493690

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The

Worst Mistake

of a Human Being

MACARIO MORALES

Copyright © 2022 Macario Morales

All rights reserved

First Edition

PAGE PUBLISHING

Conneaut Lake, PA

First originally published by Page Publishing 2022

ISBN 978-1-66249-367-6 (pbk)

ISBN 978-1-66249-369-0 (digital)

Printed in the United States of America

Contents

Chapter 1: Life Truths

Chapter 2: I Became a Greedy Man

Chapter 3: What Starts Wrong Ends Bad

Chapter 4: What It Is Like to Be Advantageous To take advantage of others and live off what is stolen

Chapter 5: Being Advantageous Only Brought Me Damnation

Chapter 6: What It Is Like to Be A Shameless Thief

Chapter 7: People Are Mean Even to God

Chapter 8: It Is Sad Not To Have God In Your Heart

Chapter 9: It Is Awful to Take Someone’s Life

Chapter 10: Divorce Is Painful and Horrifying

Chapter 11: The Consequences of the Divorce: Living with the Stepmother

Chapter 12: It Is So Bad to Give Orders to God

Chapter 1

Life Truths

How difficult it is to straighten a human being in this life; according to scholars, it is easier to straighten the horns of a sheep than a human being.

I was on my knees before the altar of the church of the town where I lived. I remember my crocodile tears rolling down my cheeks. I prayed and begged God about the situations I was going through. I was also asking for someone else to change. I asked God to change her completely, change that heart of stone she had, and give her a new one. After all, he has the power to do that.

Suddenly, I heard a comment: God does not indulge personal whims, and he is not straightening any hunchback either. It is easier to straighten a goat’s horns than a human being.

That will only happen if that person wants to really desperately change. That won’t ever happen any other way. You can read the Bible to that person all the way backward and forward, quote the Bible with chapters and verses, tell her to turn, and give herself to the Lord, our God. Don’t play minister with these people. They are never going to change, not even by being born again. They are hapless; they were born like that. They are people who have never truly met God in their lives. You can do whatever or send them to do whatever you want, crawl on your knees for miles, and even so, never change them.

You can get to the Basilica de la Virgen in Mexico City while whipping yourself all the way, hurt yourself with nopal leaves, and throw a sack full of rocks on your back; your knees can get scratched and bleed along with your back doing all kinds of sacrifice, even if you force them to swear before the altar. Sadly, nothing will change because that person is not a friend of God. The Word of our God says, He that is not with me is against me.

A friend told me, You change first.

And I quickly answered, Why me if I’m not the one with the problem?

Again, the damned disease. It would be easier for me if the other person changed. I couldn’t get the message: You change first if you’re not glad and happy. Get away from there if you’re not well. But instead, I prayed to God a lot, asking him for the violence to stop in my house. Did I want to get away? No. Years passed by, and I was still stupid on my own.

Human beings prefer to keep things to themselves and hide them than to spit them out. It is so sad for a man or a woman to pretend that they’re happy when they’re not. It is sad to say that they are happy with the life they have when they’re not. The worst mistake of the human being is to bear a violent home and say that God wants it that way, to take hits, insults, and psychological attacks. I think that doesn’t come from God. People say that words hurt more than physical hits and that silence speaks a lot, especially if they live in threat. If you are walking this dark path and you don’t talk about it, unfortunately, nobody’s going to hear it or know it, especially if you’re a woman living with a person who is

chauvinistic

controlling

manipulative

abusive or physically aggressive

cursing, and

a person who is highly jealous and prohibits everything to their partner

to go out to places,

to work,

to have friends, and

to be him or herself

This type of person is sick with jealousy, and that is the only thing they can give their couple—an unbearable life. This person is insecure about him or herself, is going to make the other person feel intimidated, and the latter won’t be able to do anything else but play along. The couple won’t be able to develop any further as a woman, as a human. A chauvinistic person won’t teach his partner how to drive, will tell her that she can’t do anything right, and set obstacles to support her. She may even cry asking for help, but he will never listen. It is deplorable when a woman depends on a man all the time and cannot do things independently, by herself.

All the time, the woman is hoping the man will take her to the doctor, dentist, optician, or pregnancy care. She even waits for the man to bring her what she needs for cooking, or the man himself doesn’t want to teach her how to drive. Everything because they are afraid their couple will cheat on them.

They will feel threatened, fear, or even panic about their partner, and instead of feeling love, they will feel resented, hold a grudge, and feel despised; and they want people to treat them as kings or queens.

These kinds of people, given their insecurity about themselves, even call their partner’s workplace to check if they are there indeed. They don’t trust their couple and constantly watch over them because they think they might be with someone else. The woman cannot have any friends because her partner keeps control of whom she speaks or what topics they talk about, but she’s the one who actually works the most. She’s the one who does the laundry, irons, cooks, cleans, and does all the never-ending chores, and then she has to attend to the kids. In Oaxaca State, the woman is the one who carries the weight of all the house chores. She has to wake up early, clean the nixtamal, and then ground the mass with which she will make fresh tortillas.

My town has neither tortillerías nor mills for nixtamal, so the woman has to work harder for breakfast. If the man has to work in the country, the usual is to bring him his hot meal wherever he is. If she has a baby, she has to find a solution anyway and better not be late, even if breastfeeding. If she gets there late, she will have trouble. Sometimes the woman wouldn’t even have shoes, and she has to walk barefoot; the rocks of the road would hurt her feet and get them cracked. Even so, she had to walk. It is her job, says the chauvinistic ones. In my case, my father finished his life in the country. Sometimes it was freezing and rainy, but we had to stay either working or grazing in the field. If it wasn’t that, we had to wake up early and see the sunrise from the hill, mowing and coming back with a load of firewood. By that time, the woman had to have lunch ready. If the baby cried a lot, that was her problem.

When someone is controlling, this person will want to control everything. Where were you? Why did you arrive so late? Why do you dress that way? Why do you wear so much makeup? You can’t go out to the street, not even to fart. This person will follow you everywhere. In my case, she followed me all the way to my workplace. If I looked at anyone passing by a store, it was already chaos for me when I got home. One time, we were driving on the highway, as usual, and calmly, I looked at the other side to check the traffic, and when we switched lanes, I felt a hard slap on my cheek.

She never called me anything less than a moron, stupid, or dumbass because I was watching another woman supposedly. It is awful to live a life like that. Why get married if you don’t trust your spouse? And people don’t get this. How are you going to have or build a life with a person like this? If they don’t believe in you at all? You see that they don’t respect you; there is no understanding, no love. So why do you still beg that person? Do you really need sex that much? Sometimes, she would look for me at the car dealer just to make sure that I was working there. If she didn’t find me for whatever reason, maybe because I was test driving a car with a customer or my manager had sent me on assignment to complete a sale, I was going to be in trouble when I arrived home.

Someone manipulative threatens to even commit suicide. They say, I will kill myself if you leave me! Then they say things like You’re only mine and no one else’s, and if you’re not going to be mine, I will kill you! And you had better watch yourself talking to anyone else. They speak loud or yell, saying, Don’t even try to make me look like a fool. Threatening all the time. I will put a curse on you, motherfucker, and I will make sure that your genitals won’t even work anymore! They will make you panic or induce fear until you paralyze. They threaten and cause terror, and there will be nothing else to do than live in violence and misery life. Dear reader, how much is your dignity as a person worth? Where is your self-esteem?

I got sick and tired of living so much domestic violence. I got sick and tired of so many

scratches,

hits and punches,

hair pulling,

insults,

cursing, and

humiliations

You live in all these moments and situations, live and full color, and you still don’t want to change? So what in the world are you thinking to believe that all those nasty moments you’re living are manifestations of love?

It was so foolish of me! I was so afraid of child support, of having to give an allowance to my children. I feared even worse when my friends told me how much I was going to have to pay. They told me that I was going to lose even my underwear, and I panicked even more. That is how people are. They make you feel terror deep inside your brain. They drown you with their words and look at you deep down with despise, intending to make you feel bad and bury you with their words. When you’re down and hurt, they give you the final blow. What’s stopping you that makes you pretend something is worth more than your own life? What’s the reason that makes you hold onto a person so badly? Why, to the point that you even want to finish your own life? Is it maybe that fear and loneliness paralyzed you? Can’t you face life on your own? When I tried to leave thinking about the material aspect, I got into so much trouble for my kids and me because of domestic violence.

I didn’t want to leave. I was afraid of losing

my house

my cars

my furniture, and

my business

I didn’t want to let everything I had worked for and earned with so much effort go so quickly. So for my comfort, I would shelter in words from the church: What God has joined together, let not man put asunder.

I swore to God that I’d be with her in